Summer Cocoon – Poem

A cool breeze of young summer air
dances around the room
as I lie in a cocoon of
safety,
warmth and,
desire. The notes going from
major to
minor as I already know that
this is
not
a Good Idea.

You’re tip
toeing
around a feeling that keeps trying to escape, only to persistently push it
down to be
cradled in the
pit of your
stomach. When do you let it
out?

It wasn’t my
intention to make you feel
accountable for something
I
can’t
control
or
Foolish for the way you acted. If it helps I have
repented on each and every star I see in the sky, asking myself
why I can’t
just
stop.

Maybe it was the way you looked at me
one night
that lit up something in me,
small and bright.
Maybe it’s the ever-balancing act of what
could have been instead of
what is.
Maybe this can stay
just
between us
instead of plastered in black and white words
Shared with
someone
else.
Given to
someone
else.
Told to
someone
else.

Maybe I should
just
disappear into the shadows to make
this
simpler.

Someone needs to sit down with me and explain if this
gets
easier.
Because I’m tired of running around being told I’m not
worth it or
special enough
to be kept in
someone’s heart.

Silky strings caress my face as I
try to emerge
try to stay submerged
try to fight the words that are
dragging
me
down
watching as the seasons change
knowing the time is near for me to
leave but I feel
Safer here
Stronger here
Better here.

Maybe I should
just
disappear into the shadows to make
this simpler
for
you.

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